Nada Sou Sou (the movie) 淚光閃閃 涙そうそう

04月21日2010年 — Seren 古心弦

This post was written in Chinese because… I think that sometimes things are better expressed in Chinese. Especially words from a child.

我刚在土豆网上上传了几个音乐视频。上传到《泪光闪闪》的古筝独奏后，便点击看看。土豆呢就自然会在播放的视频下展现相关视频。虽然我大概知道《泪光闪闪》这部日本电影的故事，但事实上没看过。这年代的我们（消费者) 真幸福，要看戏也不太需要消费就能在网上看电影。我知道侵犯版权是不对的，可是当东西免费摆在你面前，真的很难控制自己不去看吔！如果你有两小时的时间，你也能看看以下贴的视频，不然就向下滚动，继续读吧。^_^




一边看，一边哭……没父母的孩儿真辛苦啊！好才还有妈妈+有比我大九年的哥哥照顾我长大。妈妈从我小时候就每年清明带我到爸爸的墓，拿点好菜给他“吃”，有酒给他“喝”，也给他烧点香纸，银子，纸衣服，纸鞋子之类。以前叔叔们来扫墓时，也会烧只香烟给他。

最有趣的就是我每年拿着香，在爸爸的坟前“报告”我一年之内的生活可好。

幼儿园的我当然只会说“爸爸喝酒！”（小手拿着小红杯把酒洒在地上）“爸爸吃饭！”， 其他的话都让妈妈去说，因为生前的爸爸不懂得太多英语。我小时英语讲得很流利，中文却差得很。但过后呢，自己也学会对爸爸坟墓上的照片说话了。

“爸爸我今年小学一年级了，助我好好读书，乖乖听话…”

“爸爸我现在十三岁了哦， 助我快高长大……要高一点哦……再多几年就长不高了”

“爸爸我二十一岁了，是成人哦！三年前拿到奖学金时，一直都没跟妈妈拿零用钱了吔！很棒吧！”

“爸爸我有男朋友了，你觉得他是个好对象吗？”

“爸爸我要结婚了……”

“爸爸这是我老公，我要离开了，要到纽约去。不知多久才回来”

“爸爸我买了机票回来家乡过年，也来看你。虽然以多年失去了你，我真的不想也失去妈妈。不知你能不能助她信耶稣呢……”

小的时候对爸爸的照片说话是大大声的。不知不觉，人长得越来越大，但话却变得越来越小声，只在心里说了。好啦，享受享受以下我为清明节做的视频吧！

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Time to have children

02月17日2010年 — Seren 古心弦

When is the right time to have children?

This Lunar New Year, darts of questions came flying about whether I was going to have a child soon. From people who say “No pressure lah huh!” to people who say “Better Hurry Up!” to people who even suggest “have 4 children”! And of course, grandma stretches out her hand to rub my belly and mumur words I could not comprehend. She was speaking cantonese without dentures.

Speaking of grandma, I was sad to see that her health is not as pink as it used to be. I spoke to her over a long distance call about a month ago and everything seems fine…she sounded good. But now, face to face, I know that it’s really not that good afterall. She is not overly ill, and everyone is convinced that this is just a normal part of aging. She is afterall in her late 80s.

Life goes on, and my younger cousins who used to be geeky are now grown and worldly-wise. And the greatest change would be the little neices and nephews I haven’t seen in a while. Wow, how much the children have grown! My niece is now so much friendlier than when she was a baby, and she can speak so many complex sentences, reflecting what’s going on in her mind.

It seems that my peers are having kids too. I just found out that my best friend from 5th and 6th Grade has a 5-month old daughter.

Wow. Am I waiting too long? I feel that there is so much I want to do before I become a full-time-24hr-standby-no-sleep-for-the-first-few-months Mom. So much that I want to learn in terms of music, and to develop Spirit Teahouse more.

Lord, guide me.

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My True Love gave to me… …

12月24日2009年 — Seren 古心弦

This was from an email forwarded from my mom-in-law.

===================================There is one Christmas Carol that has always baffled me.
What in the world do leaping lords, French hens,
swimming swans, and especially the partridge who won’t come out of the pear tree have to do with Christmas?

The 12 Days of  Christmas Song

 

This week, I found out.
From 1558 until 1829, Roman Catholics in England were
not permitted to practice their faith openly. Someone
during that era wrote this carol as a catechism song for young Catholics.
It has two levels of meaning: the surface meaning
plus a hidden meaning known only to members of their church. Each
element in the carol has a code word for a religious reality
which the children could remember.
-The partridge in a pear tree was Jesus Christ.
-Two turtle doves were the Old and New Testaments.
-Three French hens stood for faith, hope and love.
-The four calling birds were the four gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke & John.
-The five golden rings recalled the Torah or Law, the first five books of the Old Testament.
-The six geese a-laying stood for the six days of creation.
-Seven swans a-swimming represented the sevenfold gifts of the Holy Spirit–Prophesy, Serving, Teaching,  Exhortation, Contribution, Leadership, and Mercy.
-The eight maids a-milking were the eight beatitudes.
-Nine ladies dancing were the nine fruits of the Holy Spirit–Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness,  Faithfulness,
 Gentleness, and Self Control.
-The ten lords a-leaping were the ten commandments.
-The eleven pipers piping stood for the eleven faithful disciples.
-The twelve drummers drumming symbolized the twelve points of belief in the Apostles’ Creed.
So there is your history for today. This knowledge was shared with me and I found it interesting and enlightening and now I know how that strange song became a Christmas Carol…so pass it on if you wish.’
Merry (Twelve Days of) Christmas Everyone

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Wow, Interesting huh.

Merry Christmas to you. Love you all.

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We are not born racist.

10月15日2009年 — Seren 古心弦

I’ve just created a playlist, watch the first one and it’ll continue playing the rest automatically.

Isn’t love and friendship meant to be so sweet? What happened as we grew up? I guess we watched the reactions of the adults we trust, and learned their values… even the racist values. Rather than concentrating on the common humanity we share – that we all need love, friends, family, and respect… we learn to differentiate, which turn to discrimination, which turns into convenient stereotyping, and may even turn into fear and suspicion… and people’s stereotypes may turn into self-fulfilling prophesies.

It’s not just about being different in appearance. Even Asians can discriminate against other Asians, Indians against Indians, Chinese against Chinese. For example, I once had a “summer job” coordinating rental apartments and rooms. In tis particular locale, there were many landlords who were not China-born, but they were chinese in decent. They were obviously westernized, and when I was collecting their rental details for the agency I worked for, the most common criteria they set for us coordinators when matching a tenant for them was “No China Chinese”.

Of course they had several other ridiculous requests of which I had to counsel them… But Chinese rejecting “Chinese” really perplexed me. Aren’t we all 龙的传人？I tried not to take my job too personally, but I was a little upset. Especially when many of the tenants on the waiting list urgently looking for a place to stay were China-born Chinese.

I am surely guilty of discriminating people too. Even if not in action, possbily in manners, in avoidance or in thought? I was taught all these from my world as I was growing up because “girl, this will make sure you stay safe, safe from potential harm from these people(points fingers at others).”

But the bible tells us that due to the nature of sin in us, we are in danger of ourselves. I am the one who would potentially harm myself and others (points at myself). God, by your amazing grace, save me from me.

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